Okay! I’m usually talkative, mild-mannered and reasonable when it comes to simple matters but lately um (not so much). Tears were flowing which is rare because I’m not a crier. My emotions were upside down and I don’t know what I’d do without my man (which I will henceforth call “Goat Meat”); don’t ask. He is usually the one that needs a firm rational reminding of sorts, but today I was that person. I was overwhelmed because I now had a beautiful 8 lb 2 oz princess who was not only in need of my precious mind and breast milk, but also reliant upon my sound mind; which I felt was dwindling by the second. I felt unequipped, and not in the “I -bought- the- 7th- edition -of -‘What -To- Expect -When- Your -Expecting’- yet -left-it- on- my- bookshelf -for -months- kind -of -way”, but more like the God-never-ever-could-have-prepared-me-for-this-type-of-stress variety of woes. But after a bucket full of tears I sucked it up and used my babies’ slumber as a great kind of one-on-one therapy time with goatmeat. An epiphany ensued…I realized that i must be box-of-rocks crazy to think that my “Motherhood Experience” would be like a fairytale, nothing in my life had ever been so what i was experiencing was absolutely God’s “Growing Pains”, here I was in a new state of thought and awareness. I survived my 10 month (and counting) pregnancy and even more wild delivery to a beautiful baby girl and I felt blessed in so many ways that my worries became obsolete, non-existent and mostly premature. God never puts on you more than you can bear and since we cannot predict 6 months or even 1 month into our futures and what may arise were just gonna have to “Be calm and Get a Lollipop”, Hug the ones you love and be happy that you can share those moments because as God is misunderstood, so is Love and it’s cousins Admiration and Appreciation are lacking as well. Take your time….
- Depression – Post Partum ?? (roseadi.wordpress.com)